Finding Passion Without God

Our passion about our version of God made us feel like we were part of something bigger than ourselves. When we start rethinking our beliefs and questioning our truth, we can feel out of control, directionless, and lost.

The glorious sound of a gospel choir soaring across an auditorium was a transcendent experience every time I led worship, played the keyboards for a choir, or participated in a special production. For nearly 25 years music was as deep in my core as the need to breathe. But things had changed.

Why I was singing began to grow hollow. What I was singing stopped making sense. I had serious doubts about God’s existence and my purpose. Turning off the power to my keyboards symbolically shut down the deity that I realized led to disconnection to my true self after years of torment and pain. But doing so left me feeling dead inside. Continue reading “Finding Passion Without God”

Is God Punishing Me for Doubting Him?

Our fears of punishment are usually based on beliefs about a God who is small, insecure, threatened, and punitive.

Doubting God’s existence is part of being human. While most of us blindly believed what we were taught, there were probably doubts in the backs of our minds when it came to unanswered prayers or disquieting thoughts. Nevertheless, we moved forward despite our feelings.

When we face our doubts and start rationalizing beliefs with truth and facts, we do so cautiously because warnings were built into our scriptural interpretations and dogmas. Continue reading “Is God Punishing Me for Doubting Him?”